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Skyline of Richmond, Virginia

Love and hate in San Francisco

06.03.08


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So I’ve finally completed the Move from Hell… and by completed, I mean that my room is crammed full of boxes and my previous co-tenants should lose only a small fraction of their deposit due to the mess we collectively left behind. So yeah, there’s still some work to do to finish moving in to the new place. I’ve sworn by the moon and stars that this time around I will complete that process, fully and swiftly… not like those other times… this time will be different. But the time-pressured stuff where I worry about leaving other people in the lurch is over.

Moving, as all humanity seems to agree, sucks. But I do feel a sense of cleanness and accomplishment now that it’s over, much though I want to do it better the next time. Also, I did have a few bits of extraordinarily good luck. I bought the U-Haul damage coverage, which I usually don’t–so they can pay for the car I smashed the first time I attempted a right turn in my 14-ft van. The neighborhood I moved to has an obscenely, reliably available quantity of parking for which I don’t even need the neighborhood parking permit I’ve yet to obtain. And tonight, as we scrambled desperately to really, truly, finally get the very last things out of the house, it turned out to be trash day… a little here, a little there… thank you, neighbors, and I hope you already put in all your trash, because now those suckers are full. If the household chemicals currently in the back of my car don’t leak into the Goodwill stuff and the cardboard (or worse, the upholstery), I’ll be willing to call it a success.

Anyway that’s the hate, such as it is. On to the love.

I believe I can truthfully claim to have loved San Francisco before this past weekend. But somehow, starting Saturday morning or early afternoon, walking the street, I came to the persistent feeling that being here I’m swaddled in a warm, protective blanket. Looking even at places that I used to think of as grungy or uninteresting, I see beauty. I feel that I’m connected to something enduring and meaningful. That I’m home.

I don’t know what it was. It could be that after a year in the city I’m reaching that mass of friends where I feel like I really know people here, where I have opportunities to hang out and places to go that weren’t available before. It could be that a pleasant, intoxicated episode Friday night left its mark, as such episodes sometimes do. Whatever it was, I’ll do my best to keep seeing the city in this light.